The Last Two Weeks

What a fortnight.


I feel I've been through the wringer. I'm still standing, albeit perhaps barely. Its been quite the ride.

Firstly, I want to thank Tom's parents and family for having us at his funeral on Friday. I hope my speech did the big guy justice and good lord I hope he liked the song. That was 48 hours ago and it hasn't left my mind since. I hope it'll get easier, but I'm preparing for a lifetime of missing him. 

Secondly, my family lost someone this week. My Great Uncle Brian was one of the kindest, most genuine and loving people you could ever hope to meet. He would always make a point to ask me how my musical endeavours were going and I hope I'm able to make him proud. He leaves a huge hole in our lives and I'm so glad I got to see him in December. I love you Uncle Brian. I was lucky enough to have three grandads, and I can't thank you enough. 

Thirdly, surgery went well but the enforced rest I've got to take from exercise is like kicking a man when he's down. Exercise is my outlet, and without that way of blowing off steam I feel lost and clueless. 4 weeks and 4 days until I can lift weights again, although I'm hoping to go for a run this week. Meanwhile, I feel sick with worry about my appearance which I haven't felt since 2016. Not good.

Moving house is always stressful but some significant setbacks hit this week on that process too - I called it!

Finally, I want to end on a positive. I want to say a huge thank you to Frankie, Mum, Dad, Emily and Dan and my family for their support. I want to thank Frankie's family and my friends as well. Special shout to Nick for helping stop me sinking into a pit by showing me just how bad I am at PUBG when I needed to laugh. 

I also want to say a huge thank you to my bandmates. Friday was one of the toughest days of my life, and I think if they hadn't been there I'd have crumbled, maybe we all would have. I'm lucky enough to call them my best friends and I'm thankful for every pizza we share, every joke we laugh about, and every minute we spend together. I love you all.

New blog on Monday with some exciting news, but until then, I'm going to have a lazy Sunday with the girl of my dreams.


Now Playing: "My Own Worst Enemy" by Lit