"If I Could Turn Back Time"

Say what you want, but Cher knows how to write a song. There's one song in particular I've been thinking a lot about lately. 

One year ago tomorrow, our hearts were broken. Tom's death is a tragedy I know I will never recover from. Losing him is one of the hardest things I've ever experienced.

About a week before his passing, we spoke and I was not pleasant to Tom. He'd upset me, and his other friends in the band. I told him to leave me alone.

I will regret that conversation for the rest of my life. If I could speak to Tom right now, I'd tell him how I was just upset, but that I love him like a brother. I still do. As I sit here, tapping away at these keys, my eyes are welling up with tears. 

We were supposed to go on tour together, we were supposed to light up rooms together, we were supposed to go deaf way before our time together. We were supposed to grow old together. You were supposed to be the "Crazy Uncle" to my kids, and I was supposed to be there for you, forever.

I wasn't there for you that night, because as much as you were a pain in the arse, I was too proud to tell you that I love you. 

Since you left us, we've played some crazy shows. We even played one for you and raised a load of money. People tell us our music means something to them, music you helped build out of nothing. Every time we play "Better Days", I pound my chest and point up to you because I want you to know I'm singing it to you. There will never be a time that I sing that song and it isn't for you. I hope you're proud of what we've done

I can't believe it has been a year. For a year, we have grieved. For a year, we've missed your smile. For a year, we've had so many things to say to you. For a year, I've been sorry, and I always will be.

"If I could turn back time,
If I could find a way, 
I'd take back those words that hurt you,
And you'd stay"